Struggling to Accept Answered Prayers by Desirae Ofori
Have you ever heard the saying, be careful what you pray for because you just might get it? Well… I love to dream and expect big things, and usually, my prayers match. When I pray I like to add for God to answer it however He sees best. I can’t go wrong with wanting what He wants for me. After all, He knows the beginning, end and everything in between.
“I don’t think the way you think. The way you work isn’t the way I work.” God’s Decree. “For as the sky soars high above earth, so the way I work surpasses the way you work, and the way I think is beyond the way you think. Isaiah 55:8-9 MSG
I’ve heard it said that God answers prayers in three ways – yes, no, and not yet.
It’s interesting how if you’ve been waiting for a while and God ‘finally’ says yes to those prayers, that we can be uncomfortable or struggle with what it looks like. Maybe it’s because it doesn’t look or come to us exactly how we imagined it would. Sometimes we even complain about that answered prayer, forgetting it was exactly what we asked God for.
Dreams Turning into Reality… Sorta
Years ago, I believe even before I got married, I had a pretty detailed dream of what Motherhood would look like for me. I dreamed that someday I’d be a stay at home mom, yet, not necessarily 24/7. I wanted the flexibility to have my kids home, with the option for some childcare so that I could work a part-time job for extra spending/fun money and volunteer in the community.
My “not yet” came three years ago once I had my first son; he went into daycare while I worked a full-time job. However, the dream still remained, and I resolved that whenever the second child came along my dream would be fulfilled. Then last year, my idea of part-time work turned into being self-employed working full-time on this blog and my art business.
The day I left my job is the day I found out I was pregnant with my second child. And although it was a shock and I essentially would be doing what I dreamed for years, it took me a while to realize it was an answered prayer. If I can be honest, I was stuck in shock for months and in a bit of denial and sadness. Of course, I wanted this baby but I couldn’t see how it was all going to work out. I wasn’t – or didn’t think I was – ready yet, I was just getting started on this new journey.
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The plans that I had originally made prior to leaving my job, weren’t exactly panning out as I expected and hoped. I tried to take control and spun myself into a frenzy trying to see what I could do to bring in extra income. Plus, there was the pressure of the financial responsibility that comes with raising an additional child. And again, if I can be honest, looking back, I wasted a lot of time feeling depressed, anxious, embarrassed and like a failure.
There were many times, however, that God proved that I was covered and that I was still blessed. Even with many great new opportunities, I stumbled being focused on the unfulfilled financial part of the dream. I forgot to see that some of the “not yet” answers to my prayers had boldly turned into “yes”.
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We’re into the third and final quarter of the year, and when I raise my eyes from the comparison fog of what I thought would be to what is present, I can clearly see how God has sustained us throughout. Remember, I prayed for God to answer the prayer how He saw it best because He knows what’s best! Sometimes prayers are answered through a process, and we don’t get everything answered as one lump sum.
As I’m writing, I’m thinking, how overwhelming that might have been for me? Would I have known how to handle it all at once? Then what would there be to look forward to? Would I even appreciate it the same? Ahhhh that delayed gratification. Hmmmm…
In the 90 day devotional, Awaken, by Priscilla Shirer, I recently read Day 47 which is titled ‘Overshadowed’. She says, “[God] wants to produce things through your life that would have been impossible without Him. Then while others may applaud you, congratulate you, and put their compliments into kind words to offer you, you’ll know deep down that these accolades don’t really belong to you. You’ll know Who really did the work, and You’ll know to deflect all glory back to Him.”
Here’s a part of my journal response to the devotional:
“…I feel He’s calling me to trust Him… I become impatient when there are things that I want (and used to get without second-guessing), yet have to practice restraint because our money feels limited, at times. I need to continue to put my trust in God that His pockets, His budget, His provisions are unlimited. I need to pray for guidance and thank God for every need met – financially, physically, emotionally, and spiritually.”
This season is teaching me the need to be thankful and dig deeper in trusting God’s plans for our answered prayers. For Him it’s more than just a simple answered prayer – it’s part of your destiny and for Him to show out in a way that yells, “Only God could’ve done this”. It all comes full circle back to Him. He deserves the credit for delicately weaving a master plan, that’s bigger than any of us could imagine. And at the end of the day, whether we’re able to see it clearly or not, it’s always for our best. Jeremiah 29:11
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